LOVE

Love

I have no words to think of right this moment to describe these three. I literally spend every waking minute with them. They make me laugh countless hours of the day.
I feel like ive known them forever and its so strange to think we have only been friends for 6 months and before only strangers. Even writing this im smiling :) each of them is totally crazy. Lorna :) is a monkey never met anybody so mad, shes bopping about on her spacehopper with her witchy laughter. She sneaks into my bed to catch up every morning even though she only went to sleep a few hours before. Her food habits disgust me, gerkins being a particular favourtie and she pickles everything! but as she said id never have her any other way! Sheri...well shes a bounching bundle of joy, likes chilling in her converses has mayonaise on everything she can find, has the cutest nose and the longest legs ive ever seen. Your my jammy star Sheridan(probably spelt wrong)she makes me dinner every night and snores ever so loud! She is so so sweet and my soulmate for musicals :)! Then theres Alyce...well crazy isnt enough to sum her up, she makes the funniest noises and her faces are to die for. Shes totally mad, she doesnt even have to talk and im laughing :)she practically lives in my wardrobe but always looks amazing in whatever she pulls out of there.
They are all soooooo beautiful and...
Best of all ive never met 3 people id rather spend every minute of every day waisting my life with!

I really

LOVE

you! xxx

Free Falling..

It makes me so happy to remember you..how you made me laugh...and my god you made me laugh :)

Id love to put these feelings in song, id have a hell of a lot to sing about.

Loose You!

Loosing yourself isnt a lot like loosing your purse....
Its when you feel the least like yourself, like the person you used to look like, the person you used to be. Its different to growing up, its like growing into yourself. Now looking in the mirror is like looking at a passer by. Its wierd to think once I was so certain of what I looked like.... what i wanted...who I was, I was almost determined!! Its something always there preying on my mind, even if its not the first thing I wake up believing that morning! All the things i used to love dont interest me anymore, I cant motivate myself to do them because they make me sad! I feel like im constantly trying to change myself to make me happier, always trying to find something and somebody to make me feel that way again. What if I need to find you again, get to know you to feel real again. Theres no denying im happy, some days I laugh so much my stomach hurts, and im living a life now where there are no worries for me. But mabye I used to love the hastle, that excitement of always having something to think about, to keep me on my toes. Im excited to see if real happiness is waiting this long to have something come back to you, youve always wanted soo badly, to prove to you the fairytale your living is real!
I think these feelings have never left me, but there chasing me as I try my hardest to move on. Its strange to think that you had so much power over my life that I never recognised before now, not a bad power just a hold on me, and somehow it all leads back to you.... you were always there even though a hundred miles away from me!

'Sometimes you have to start again....in order to fly'I thought starting again would be simple and an escape from the small reminders that are home to me. A whole new life would be soooooo easy to do, sooo easy to block you out, find the person I was without you. I know I lost myself when I gave all of me to you, gave you all of me, everything I could give to you I did without ever a second thought! Now I feel like theres nothing left of me to give to another!